angst lover

I admit I love angst. Today I am trying to find a way to put some more into a new story. Ok, it is a modern short story that has been hopping around in my head. I want it to be mostly humorous with no rivals for Elizabeth or Darcy and really just a bunch of fluff and fun. Except I still want tension and suspense. I like to read stories with tension and suspense. I like to write tension and suspense. I love angst.

My mind must have something new and creative to type out while I polish and edit Expectations.

My life was full of angst and tension and suspense. Well, my young adult married life. lol Once we get into London and someone's backstory is revealed than I will share my own personal agnst.

Someone asked me recently if I ever wrote poetry. The answer is hell no. I hate poetry. I do not have a poet's sense of things. Unless of course you consider the ripoff of Dr. Seuss' Oh the Places you will Go I wrote when I retired. But as to poetry. I hate the stuff. That is why I prefer mystery and spy novels. Of course, living and working in the DC area all my life may have something to do with that. Many of the spy novels cover certain buildings and locations in DC not to mention the inner workings of the federal government. lol I was an inner worker! I worked in the bowels of government, slushing around purchasing the items needed by those organizations with spies and whatnot. If I tell you more, then you know. I will have to do you in. So we shall just stop there.

I liked contracts. There was much suspense and tension at every bid opening or announcement of the winner. Good gosh, one time a man had his house burnt down because of a competitor. He was the manufacturer of condoms and yes, the federal government buys those things. In truckloads. For export to 3rd world countries. I worked in an office that handled those contracts. Well, I did not do the actually buying, but it was always interesting to hear about their contracts. Failure rate of the item was suppose to be zero. But there were some strange things we learned. In some countries the color matter. Do not send white flesh color condoms to some african countries. It could start a war. lol Can you imagine the headlines? War breaks out over the superior color of one's penis. lol Perhaps working in that office freed me from shying away from such terms. I suppose doctors and nurses feel this way. It is just a word!

But words do matter and how you present (or omit) makes a difference as to the tension in a story. A phrase here and there can up the red flag in a reader's mind. It does not take much. I am careful with most of my sentences and they have more than one meaning or at least a purpose. Some are fluff just to set the scene, others are distractions-purposely. but I do my best to try and raise the tension and keep my readers a little edgy. Sorry, but this is just what I like.

well, time to execise and hopefully my back will remain in tact.

till tomorrow. gayle