Chapter 49 is with the betas

Yeah! I still want to fiddle around with the ending of chapter 49A (49B was rewritten today - just could not get that change out of my head so I sat down and rewrote it. I like it much better now.

well, not much more to say. My time is being used up.

gayle

the unveiling

Yes, today the readers find out who is at the door! lol Some have guessed it.

today is the day I defalcon the man chasing the Alliance. What will the readers think? I never gave them a real clue in my comments. I am still messing with the ending. I do deliberate over and over again some simple stuff. Today it is the ending of this chapter.

Cuffage is another person that gets unveiled.

But before we get to the ID's we have to get Darcy through the rest of his re-education program. Sort of an intervention, would you not agree.

And the letter ! of Course that has to be read and today is the day. How it gets found and gets read is in keeping with this chapter. lol

Poor, poor Darcy. So much happens this day and this day covers 3 chapters. First the carriage ride home and Kent, all in the morning, the afternoon is today and the evening is next Tuesday. But then so many questions will be answered and everyone will understand why I have been so cadgey about my responses. lol

Chapter 49 is two parts and I don't know if I will post both parts at the same time. Some people do not like long, long chapters and this would make them read over 10,000 words. Too many. I may however, post a couple days later for Part B.

Chapter 50 is also long. but then endings usually are. I have much work to do on it. I read it last night and groaned - out loud - my draft is pitifully shallow. It will take at least a week for me to flush it all out. So, depending upon how quickly I can finish Chapter 50 will decide how quickly I will post Chapter 49 Part B.

The epilogue is also a wreck. I also have to make a few changes in order for my Book III to work, but now that I have thought about it, these final chapters are necessary to complete the story. So instead of a couple paragraphs in the epilogue I will provide 10 chapters and yes, angst will exist.

Book III will not be posted until such time as the whole thing is finished. I mean really finished. No more polishing, etc. And I doubt I will be able to post at DWG since there are no-no's which I would possibly want to include. I don't think I will impose upon my beta's this time. They have certainly helped me so much that I feel like I would be asking too much for more help.

The outline is finished for Book III of course I realize my outlines change as I write.

Ah, but then I will be in Florida and everything will be warm and sunny while I find some time to write. I do some of my best writing there. I look forward to sitting on the Lanai beside the pool while the sun comes up. My laptop will be burning from the speed of my fingers. I find when I have something to write and it invades my sleep it is best to get it down on paper.

My muse refuses to let me touch anything else, such as Wretched Beginnings and Turning Points until this story is finished.

Next year I will begin the process of converting the story into a book. Of course I will have to shorten the story and I will probably begin with Darcy and Bingley discussing how to get their friends to go to Netherfield Park and Bingley comes up with the Olympics so invitations go out for that while Darcy and Bingley secretly want to do the business stuff. First they need to get them there and they can hide behind the competition for setting up the business venture. Also I will bring the Falcon in earlier and make everyone suspect one of the five men as being involved with the Falcon (and by now everyone knows that is not true). I can build supsense that way and still keep the rivalry between Darcy and Blake. I will need to address some problems there too. Ah! Revisions, revisions, revisions. Somehow I will need to cut the story in size or put out three books. Too many pages now for only one.

I also want to take an English grammar class and a creative writing class. I will check to see if there is anything open for the Winter semester at the community college or Brevard College.

Well off to tag my chapter. I am anxious to see the reaction.

gayle

I'm Home!

Nice holiday but glad to be back. I fell down on the job of providing the days of defalconing. Oh well. I was inundated with Rush Hour 1, 2, and 3; Iron Man, the Incredible Hulk, Miracles, and bunch of other guy flicks. Yes, I stayed with my son. lol

I actually liked the Rush Hour movies and I have always liked Robert Downey Jr. so that is a Yea for Ironman. Of course that movie had some delicious wit. Perhaps Rawlings wrote the screenplay? lol

Only two days to defalconing the man. Will anyone be surprised? Yes, indeed. all my beta's were. I have enjoyed the guesses but it is Chapter 48 that will hopefully knock their socks off.

Poor Darcy. I keep getting that from everyone that has read Chapter 47. Poor, poor Darcy. Of course I am trying to make you feel sorry for the dumb lug. How else can I get you to want to hug him and hold him close and make his hurts all better?

Well, I have still some work to do on Chapter 49A and B (yes, I have split the chapter into two sections but because it is an overlap of time, I did not give it two chapter numbers.

I played Mama Mia most of the way home! That and some Michael Buble (can't do that accent thing). I especially like his third and fifth songs and played them over and over while I contemplated... Book III of Expectations. Yes, I have the final part of the story in my head. I have to redo the Epilogue but that is not too difficult, since I have redone whole swaths of chapters at a time. The final part will be shorter than the others but driving alone with certain music causes me to see the story on my windshield. No wonder my daughter-in-law fears riding with me.

LIke a play, Act I is always the longest and sets up the story, act II is shorter with Act III being almost miniscule in comparison. Well I have a long book I - up to the proposal scene that did not happen between Blake and Elizabeth; and an almost as long book II - all business - and now the romance section in Book III. I, of course, reserve the right to stop with Book II but the story just does not want to fade away yet. I have some unfinished business and I think I must finish it or else it will bug me for the rest of my life.

Well, off to load up the washing machine with my dirty laundry and pour a glass of wine and think about book III. maybe 10 chapters in all. That should do it. And of course my own special brand of angst. mmmm. oh, what fun.

till tomorrow.

gayle

Another day of discovery

Ah, today, poor Darcy's reeducation continues. Not only does Richard tell him what he thinks of the man, but reveals why he reveals why he told Elizabeth how Darcy separated bingley and jane.

I have always wondered why would a man of sense and education do such a thing. Surely, he knew Darcy was interested in her. He knows Darcy and to watch him watch her is a tell (in the poker world) he would have known so why would he do what he did. Was it purposeful or does the Colonel in the British Army have no brains? lol

Of course it was a plot device but Jane Austen never used plot devices willy nilly. What was in her mind? We will never know so I get to interpret it any way I want. So I did. It may not sit well with everyone but I needed an interpretation that also went with my story.

Ah, Georgiana has a few moments in today's post. Who is that she is playing for now? mmmmm.

And poor Darcy when he and Kent go head to head. What will you think of Kent now? He is such an intereting character I wish now I had brought it out a little more. Perhaps another time.

Darcy is still wheeling from the proposal fiasco the day before and now this! and the day does not end with today's post because the next two post continue that day. wow - three chapters covering less than 24 hours. A record for me.

Well, at the end of the three posts everything about the alliance's enemies will be uncovered. I hope everyone likes the answers. But then the story is not done. I must address Elizabeth and Darcy. I will.

As you can guess my story does stop way short of the canon storyline. but the climax of my story comes so early that it is not necessary to go all the way - that is why I did not really include Lady Catherine except by slight mention here and there.

but can you guess what is the final event? What brings my story to a close? lol Well, I do give the epilogue to tie up the lose ends and perhaps begin a short story. One is whirling around in my head,

well, off to post the story. I have to leave here at 10:30 am with my son and get ready for my dinner for tomorrow.

Thanks to the fans that are willing to expose their guesses. By the time the story of the Falcon comes out I think they will all be pleased.

gayle

Oh No!

I have just finish flushing out chapter 49 when I realized something - it is too damn long. It is over 9000 words. So, I have no choice but to split the chapter. It splits nicely in the middle so there is not problem there. And the chapter arc is fine.

Oh my. I am afraid to look at chapter 50.

Well, Chapter 49 had to deal with two people - Elizabeth and Darcy. I needed to add a scene to Elizabeth's story. I had even written - Don't forget to write the Lizzy and Jane scene. So since I had to add it and with the enhancement to Darcy's story I had way too many words.

So yesterday and today I worked on the chapter. It is providing more depth where I had telling paragraphs before. So I will have a chapter 49a and 49b - and will post together. Since the timeframe was the same (or nearly the same time period) I don't think it should be separate chapters.)

Ah, some of my readers will be pleased others, I think are anxious to get to the end. lol Oh well, I am not delaying who the falcon is. Geezh. I am not perfect! lol

They both need a lot of polishing but I think everyone will like the chapter(s) much better. And going for something better is always a goal that should be maintained.

gayle

update

My breathing test was postponed due to the pressure from the storm. My lungs are hyperinflated and I am short of breath so the lady said no. Since I only can have 1 test per year as a routine check up I at least want it to be a good one.

. Yikes - this means I have to pay the 2009 rates next hear! An additional 5%.

Well, off to do some stuff.

gayle

humorous proposal

Knock, Knock!

Who is there?

Why it is I, your Fitzwilly who has come to take your hand in marriage.

Who are you again?

Fitzwilly - you know Mr. Darcy

And where are you taking me?

to be my wife?

Wife? I thought you were gay the way you just looked at everyone and never spoke to a woman.

Gay? Not on your life! Now let me in so I can make you my wife!

Go away. You don't have anything I want. I want a smooth talking, good looking man.

I am good looking

but you are not smooth talking.

I will be if you let me in.

Go away. I am waiting for my true love.

I am your true love. I want to propose.

I bet your are ardent in your admiration!

Yes, I am.

Why can't you just be like the other boys. Stare at my breasts and say I want you. I love you. let me taste you.

I am a gentleman

Yes and an ardent one at that.

What the hell is wrong with ardent?

Who says ardent? Heck it is only two syllables.

Would you prefer I said enthusiastically? that is a bunch of syllables. I am Fitzwilliam Darcy and can use any size word.

How about passionately? Now a smooth talker would use that word.

You mean like Blake

No, Wickham. He is the smooth talker.

Not Blake?

No Mr. Darcy. Blake would use a flowery word. He likes flowers. He used flowers to woo me.

There is no flowery word for ardent. Ardent is the best word.

He would not bother with ardent anyway. He would go right for the.....

Stop Elizabeth. Do not speak of other men while I am here begging you to be my wife?

Go away. You only want me because Blake wants me. I know your type.

But Blake is a bad boy. I am a good boy.

Mr. Darcy you got your guys mixed up. Blake is a good boy, Wickham is bad. You are gay.

I am not gay. Blake is bad too. Why I can beat him up in a fist fight.

So?

I can beat him in a horse race, maybe not now that the devil authoress gave him the damn horse.

I don't care about horses, you dunce.

Flowers? you like flowers. I suppose you like lavender ones.

yes.

Candy?

yes,

Diamonds

most certainly

Ok. Miss Elizabeth. I will give you flowers every week, candy every month and diamonds every year. How is that? Will you open the damn door and agree to be my wife now.

No.

Why not.

You, Mr. Darcy, are a meanie.

I am not a meanie.

Yes you are. You were mean to my sister.

You sister can fend for herself. She is too good to wed that dunce Bingley. Why does she want a man that can't decide who he loves? He is such a wet noodle. She needs a real man, like my cousin Richard. He will wed her and bed her in a second. He is a real man with a real hard noodle.

She loves Bingley.

No. She cannot marry Bingley. Look, if she weds Bingley and I wed you, than Caroline somehow becomes my sister. No way in hell. Do you want Caroline as your sister?

Perhaps you have a point. But you were mean to Wickham.

I was not mean enough. He should be singing in soprano today.

You would do that?

Do what?

You know?

Stuff them tiny little things down his mouth. You betcha.

Tiny?

Yes tiny ones to go with a tiny little dick.

I did not know.

Don't worry honey about me along those lines. I am all you could every want. I am a stallion. So say yes.

But Mr. Darcy you have done nothing to prove you love me.

Damn Woman. Ok, I will call Wickham and have him seduce your sister and then I will save the day and you will want me after I do it and after you have seen my vault of gold.

Ok. Be heroic and I will marry you.

Be back later.

Bye. Don't hurt anything. Especially anything we might need for later use.

Gee Whiz! Women!

proposals

Yep, today is proposal day. Not much new here except I do have the nasty little Cuffage/Gardiner issue, the Blake issue, the gas lighting book among the proposal.

I grappled with how to present the same proposal. First I only had him writing the letter. Then I thought, well the readers will want some one on one action with Elizabeth. So it begins with her and ends with the letter. But unlike Jane Austen, I do give you Darcy's POV. not hers. I hope the readers understand I have tried to keep the story in the men's POV and that means darn little of Elizabeth.

Many of the authors write from her perspective. I always enjoy what is presented but it was Pamala Aiden that wet my whistle for Darcy's pov. I like her story but I found his life to be a little boring. I wanted something that explored the times back then. What must life have been like for a young man standing on top of the world that was changing shape and there was nothing he could do to stop it. Much like today. Can you feel the earth shifting under your feet. Can you feel a new breeze blowing through your hair? But is it good. Has all change led us to a better world or have we become better people? I will let the politicians fight this out. Lucky for me I don't have to worry with it now that I am retired and comfortable. If I become in dire straits then the entire country is gone. lol

Well, back to Darcy. Today the water breaks and the labor pains begin. Or for Melda, the broken track has been spotted too late but wait! The train wreck image is not quite right -- The engineer (or conductor) of everyone's life does not fall off and into a big hole when he first is targeted. No, he has to hit many walls first.

This week, Elizabeth.

Next week he runs into a couple of guys who do have a thing or two they want to get off their chests. The following week perhaps the flogging continues. But regardless in two weeks you will know the name of the falcon and who he is. But I warn you - you will not know all. lol

And yes I do wrap up the whole Elizabeth/Blake/Darcy mess before I end the story.

So sit back and enjoy the proposal. Aft that all the chapters are all pretty new stuff (very little canon).

gayle

blank

RAin, rain, rain! lol

Poor Darcy if this is not a hint I don't know what is. lol

Not much to add today. My mind is blank.

Blank even on this line too.

and here.

lol

well, I will go off and do something. perhaps that will joggle the brain cells.

gayle

chapter 48 is almost polished

It will take another day to finish up but this important chapter is finally as I want it. Just need to put the spit and polish on it.

So many answers are resolved by this chapter. I have created in this chapter the symbol of the story. In it is also a dilemma for our men. What will they do? mmmm.

the last two chapters wrap up the story and I will do a 5-year epilogue just to tie up a few lose ends. but I cannot say the readers will be happy with how the eipilogue ends. lol

off to rest. I have a party to go to tonight and I am still exhausted from last weeks activities.

gayle

the train wreck

The whole time I was talking to my mom on our usual Saturday morning phone call, the image of a train wreck kept creeping in my mind. How to use this symbol in my story.

Darcy is the train! Or is he the conductor? mmmm. The passengers are the ones hurt by the wreck which was the fault of the conductor? Which passengers go unscathed, which are mangled and which are dead. There is always a dead person in a train wreck.

No don't go yelling at my blog. Dead does not necessarily mean not breathing. Of course it does mean that but it is also a symbol for a loss so significant the person or object is dead. For instance, if someone where to hurt me severely, I would say - He is dead to me although he very much eats and drinks and breaths and what not. When I lost my project due to a new executive, my job was dead to me for quite awhile. My life seemed gray even though it was sunny summer. Yes, dead comes in many varieties. So lets return to my story.

Darcy is the conductor (and you will chuckle in the next chapter) - he manages everything: Georgiana, the alliance, Bingley, Rawlings trip to America, Blake getting involved in business and having to deal with the political aspects, Kent - ah! How has Darcy managed Kent? Perhaps the shoe is on the other foot or neither conducts the others life! Perhaps, the devil of an author has yet to reveal exactly how Darcy manages Kent. but soon the truth will come out and I will be anxious to read the comments when it does.

So the Darcy train is clack clack clacking down the track. It has a destination but does the conductor know where he is taking his trainful of men and women? mmmm. I think he knows he is moving forward but there is a sharp curve ahead. He cannot see the fallen rocks and fallen trees that lay upon the track. Ahh. A train wreck. Yes and soon our dear boy will be turning that corner. Will he survive? Will his friends? Will any woman get her man? Will Rawlings return from America to pull the rocks off the mangled passengers? Will Gayle tell anything?

No. Just keep reading. Thanks, Melda for the symbol.

the devil: Gayle

working hard

Good morning.

sorry for not posting yesterday but I did work hard at getting 46 and 47 sent off to Heather this week. I am knee deep in PatM's new story so little post today.

But yea! the sun is out the storm is gone. Unfortunately for our dear Mr. Darcy that is not the case. lol He has yet to engulfed in the hurricane I mentioned earlier in my blog. He would only wish it would stop with Elizabeth. Nope, it does not!

Well, many answers will be uncovered beginning December 23. At least your questions, well most of them, about Kent will be revealed before Christmas. The Falcon's identity will be the following week and then we wrap the story in the month of January. And all will be right with the world except for .... well, I will hold that final card close to my chest.

Off to look at words and actions and dialogue and all that stuff. And to make a pot of coffee and perhaps some french toast - at this time of hear I use egg nog! yummy. So far I have only found two brands that I actually like: Giant (in the DC area) and Pet here in NC. The rest are poor substitutes imho. When I moved to NC I tried every single brand available and only Pet passed the test. It is drinkable as is, or mixed with ice cream and booze or in a french toast. mmmmm. now I am hungry.

so till tomorrow!

gayle

This morning my breathing test

although the weather outside is frightful and the fire is so delightful. Of course weather like this affects (or is it effects - no I guess affects) my breathing so I doubt if the test will go well.

At least I will get my results immediately.

till this afternoon. Pray for a FEV1 of at least 19%.

gayle

postponed. the raging storm outside is causing my lungs no small amount of trouble. I need to be at my best for the test to show my real situation. Right now the pressure on my lungs from the change in barametric pressure change the storm has brought will render the test results as flawed. Oh well.

Back to editing and polishing. lol

gayle

Darcy Darcy Darcy

Yes, today we find out why he felt Elizabeth would accept his proposal without so much as batting an eyelash.

This week I posted how a quiet, foolish, arrogant, haughty, snobbish young man courts a woman! I have always believed Darcy had a undergone a huge change by the end of the book. I just never felt his change was shown sufficiently or that is was truly significant. I also believe that how one person is in one aspect of his life he will be in others. He is the quiet, foolish, arrogant, haughty, snobbish your man in business, friendship, family, and romance. We are who we are and if a person is to change then they need to address all areas of their character. I use my story to demonstrate the change but first I had to make him out to be the person that needed the change.

I have to laugh - today I am surrounded by a thick mist. I assume that is a clue about Darcy - he is certainly surrounded by a thick mist of his own! laughing loudly. but will the fog lift and free him? Yes, but this Darcy needs to be shook hard and I doubt one person is enough.

On to Chapter 46 and some chapters for PatM while I await the comments. I suspect they will call Darcy an idiot. lol

gayle

Crunching

All my work for the CATS Christmas Play and Dinner and me and my friend's Soup and Ornament party is done. Well, not the cleanup but the rest. The Dinner was very good and the Play was cute - a Christmas Play - and everyone that attended (a sellout) was pleased and said they how wonderful the evening was. The next day (Sunday, yesterday) was the soup and ornament party.

The weather cooperated. No strong winds. The flimsy plastic we put up on the screen on the deck plus the three heaters raised the temperature from 45 degrees to 60 by the time the guests began to arrive. the drinking and body heat added to the warmth. Almost 50 people came. lol Everyone was crunched but it would have been much worse if could not have used the big deck. Everyone seemed to have a good time and looked forward to next year. Little do they know this was the last year for the party. or maybe not. But I am in no hurry to repeat the party. If I do I will just buy soups, hire a maid for before, during and after.

Crunching is a good theme for my block day. I need to crunch my polishing to stay on track. I did not send chapter 46 to Heather Saturday so I am a week behind schedule. If I weren't so tired today I would finish the little bit left to do but with my second dishwasher load going, I chose to take a nap! lol

Perhaps tomorrow.

gayle

chopping and cutting

lol - I am speaking of the beef and chicken breasts I diced yesterday as well as the onions and green peppers. I have chosen five soups because no one hardly regrets our party. They change schedules to come. It seems to be a great hit. All it is is soups and lots of them - at least eight. Everyone comes and tastes our soups. Well, they come for my potent egg nog and the wine and games and ornament exchange. And the casual day - Bert's home and mine will be filled to the brim - to the brim! Egad over 50 people. We have small villas! Oh well, we will make due and I think if this was a regency period than it would be called a crush. (more like a crash to me.)

chopping an cutting - also is a symbol of the story. I know yet another symbol. I have cut and chopped and edited and polished and hopefully not missed some important piece of tieing up the story. but I cannot always include everything so I cut things out. I chop up the information into these teeny tiny pieces called clues. lol Everyone dislikes it so except they come back for more. Oh well it is the only way I know how to present the story in an entertaining way.

So back to my soups - here they are:

Rosemary Chicken Florentine with Wild Rice
Asian Beef and Peppers
Chicken Cheese Enchiladas
Vodka Tomato Basil with roasted garlic tomatoes and pasta
Either: Salmon Dilly Bisque (if the store has fresh salmon) or Roasted Red Pepper with cheese tortellini.

I will have my egg nog: I call it my gentlemen's nog because it takes 4 men to make it - One half gallon of Rich French Vanilla Ice Cream; one half gallon Pet (or Giant brand - if you live in the DC area) egg nog; Jim Bean whiskey - hold over egg nog pour and count to ten; Jack Daniels boubon - hold for a count of ten; and Christian Brothers Brandy - also pour to the count of ten. (see Jack and Jim and the christian borthers makes 4 men) Potent but it does blend well and I do top off with nutmeg. I do provide a version without the booze. Even people that hate egg nog line up for this one. Of course it does get the party started. lol

I also serve chicken and tuna stuffed rolls - bert does the veggie tray. We have nuts and candies and all that and we have desserts - cheesecakes, cream puffs, etc.

Bert makes her most sought after Clam Chowder (which is always ranked the best of all the soups) and a sausage peasant soup, a spicy chicken one and I don't know her last one this year. I will be surprised.

Between the egg nog and the wine, everyone will be drunk enough to play the games and sing the carols. It will be a grand Sunday.

I am looking so forward to MOnday. lol I will be exhausted but satisfied that another year and another party has been completed.

With so much to finish, I might not provide any blogs until Monday.

Oh, I did well with my Chapter 44 - DebraAnne gave me an Excellent! Excellent! I am so happy.

gayle

If you want the recipes for any of my soups - email me - gayle dot messick at gmail dot com

lol

I am off to clean my kitchen, iron the table cloths, set up the final decorations, and wash a couple of loads of clothes before I head down town for the final stuff I need to pick up. Let us hope the salmon is available.

Not much time today

Have to trim the Theater Group's Christmas tree - life was so much easier when I could just delegate the work to someone under my authority. lol Volunteers is like herding cats. lol love the pun.

Ok, I have read the comments and it seems I stirred up quite the hornet's nest with this chapter. I did not think it was that terribly frustrating but then I have seen the future. I forget how things are absorbed when someone does not know the ending.

I used the pregnancy as the symbol for the story. I don't know if I have mentioned it here before but it is the true underlying theme - The Birth of a Great Man. Well, so many readers have opted to stop reading because they think I don't love Darcy enough. Not true. But then I have filled their heads with Blake and Rawlings (and a little of Kent) and cause them to think I prefer them over their love. Maybe. I was one that did not like Darcy until the end of the book and since we are still not at the end of the book, I don't show Darcy in the best of lights. Except, I have provided examples of the essentials of the man. He helped Bingley secretly, he brought Rawlings in to the venture, He was kind to the pregnant maid, and a host of other good points but no one really mentions them. In fact other than Rawlings with the little countess I have not shown anyone with the hidden goodness. Soon though the baby in the womb will emerge and all that goodness will be revealed. lol

well, off to shower and head up to the clubhouse. Have work to do and then back to decorate my driveway and lantern. Tomorrow I cook the bases for the soups Friday I clean, Saturday I clean and make sure I am ready for the party, and I need to go to the play/dinner. Life is busy right now and I am looking forward to next week when I can return to polishing the remaining chapters and helping another with hers.

gayle

the puzzle still remains

Ok, I have written a puzzle. Who is Cuffage? Who is the Falcon? Who is the grand-niece? Is Darcy hexed? What is Kent's agenda? Will Darcy ever let someone finish a sentence? Will Mr. Gardiner ever be admitted to Darcy House? Will Richard find his battlefield? Must Richard tease our dear Darcy? Will this Authoress ever be kind to our boy?

The last of the story has been set up - all that is left is the downhill sledding to the bottom. lol But the puzzle, have you figure it out? Did you catch the clue?

Well, my poor lung problem is still a puzzle. While the CT scan showed normal lungs, I continue to lose my ability to make oxygen out of the air I breath. So no altered bronchial tubes. No clue. And now no opportunity for medial trials. My breathing test was postponed until next week - I was too exhausted to take it. Some days are like that especially when a storm is coming. Today the snowstorm is gone and I feel fine.

Puzzles. They are everywhere. Why does my friend act the way he/she does? Why does my child not call? Why does the neighbors have a party and not invite me? Why does this man (or woman) love me at all? These are some of the everyday puzzles that grip everyday people. We all life in a puzzling world where fear and bliss reside, where love and hate exist, where answers are given but more questions are raised.

I like puzzles but only when it is possible to see the clear picture in the end. My life has a piece missing. It is somewhere and holds the key to identifying what is important. Will I find it in time? Was it sucked up in a vacuum and discarded as unimportant?

WEll, off to post the chapter and see if any reader has assembled the pieces yet.

gayle

shopping and breathing test

well, today I go for my annual breathing test. fingers crossed!

I also have to get my tags renewed. - egads they were due September! I am late again.

And I have to buy stuff the the party Sunday

Because of all this, no blog today and no work on any stories.

gayle